The Big Wheel Keeps on Turning

Fear ye not, I'm back for my last week at work after my holiday in the Lake District (pics to follow) and so naturally am managing to squeeze some blog time into my busy busy schedule!

I feel that I'm at a very strange, disaorganised and purposeless crossroads, and I feel like my future is completely out of my hands. I'm pulled in two different directions. York no longer holds much here for me apart from my three remaining (wonderful) friends, but I'm absolutely gutted to leave. I'm also wanting to have got to Southampton already and am very impatient to know all there is to know about the place. All infomation online is aimed at tourists or ocean liner/ship enthusiasts, which is lovely, but when you click on any link on the main tourist website it takes you back to the homepage, regardless of what you're looking for!

I've had two job interviews now, both of which were unsuccessful. I think that even though I'm applying for jobs that I could do, travelling from York to Southampton for an interview was a bad idea... I've been completely exhausted by the time I arrive at the interview, and then my usual ability to come up with good question answers and remebering my prepared points to include just seems to have diminished. Plus I have a suspicion that my "not quite feeling 100% sure I want a job " was showing through. It's like God doesn't want me to have a job at the moment... and whether you believe in fate or God or "all things happening for a reason" it doesn't really help my feeling of directionlessness. I was the same last year... so I keep reminding myself that things can change very quickly. At least I know I won't be alone when I finally reach the next phase of my life. Poor K! I am a bag of silly nerves and it will all be a lot less scary than I've been imagining!

More anon... next time with pictures! oooooo!